Tarayyat - خربشات تاريّة

I t's been a few days where nostalgia strangely has been my loyal companion! "It's totally a different story how I ended up this way, we'll get back to that"! So like any person from the cursed 21st century, I started checking my old messages , even the ones from 2007! "Yes I'm freaking old and still can't make a decision if I should thank technology for arousing my memories!" I've read each conversation with each person I was involved with whether we ended up together or not ! " don't ask how many!" I always knew that people shape our personalities whether we wanted it or not but never thought that we can actually become a 50 shades of "us" according to people we fall for. Every damn conversation was a reminder of a different me. " Like I never thought I could be a funny person but fuck! I was in some period!" And the hopeless romantic theme to my life turned to ch ch ch cherry bomb song when I hooked

I attended a panel about human rights where several people who came from different cultural backgrounds were discussing the difficulties they face sometimes when it comes to certain topics such as; freedom of expression, being a Muslim, Feminism, LGBTQ community and so on. Having lived my whole life in autocratic countries, I'm just not used to such freedom, actually, it was terrifying when you even had these thoughts in mind. The sarcastic part was that I really didn't know where to stand in the discussion because I'm literally denied all my human rights. Which right should I stand for? In which front line shall I fight? Coming from what was supposed to be one of the safest countries in the world, Syria- which is well-known now as the country of conflict, war, ISIS and huge violations against human rights-I have to continuously change the stereotype about being the middle ages homo sapiens. I'm denied my simplest right as a human to discover and travel

I n the presence of two things we remember the human that's forgotten within us; beauty and suffering. This world  ; our world is full of beauty and things that are waiting to be discovered,feelings to be felt and people waiting to be embraced. Sadly mankind wasted this life by hurting each other, successfully destroying beauty and creativity wherever they were found leading humanity to suffer. In my search of harmony I think that learning about appreciating intangible things, broadening the meaning of love and staying wherever we feel inspired will help us survive through this transitional world.

I t was not her beauty but more the affecting presence she possessed which captures all your senses, challenges all your being and keeps you on the edge of ecstasy. Her unpredictability confuses you yet creates the best version of you. Rules and experiences you've known disappear and all you can do is improvise. Her warm green eyes take you far away yet back where you belong, to the home you lost. Weeks later, after you both left to your separate paths, to fight your different wars,all you feel is the loss over someone who was never yours. And it comes times when you can't help but to ask, was is it a mistake to let her go even though you deeply know that the only way she knows how to love would never be enough for you? Maybe somethings are never meant to be, Maybe someday, Maybe.....

T hose who create destruction fear it the most. As Syrian people are called ISIS now by the fascist Trump, he has to know who the real Syrians are. Syrians are humans who were failed by their government ,the opposition groups who traded Syrian lives for money and power. Where their land became the place for the clash of foreign powers and the dumpster for the radical militant groups who are created by those governments. People who were exactly like you until suddenly they got killed,arrested,interrogated,tortured,raped,drowned,rejected, diseased,migrated and still discriminated. People who are still out there suffering but yet fighting for a better life and achieving great things despite all of the obstacles. Humans like you who need nothing but to feel safe and loved. #SyrianpeoplearenotISIS

I can't think of any one reason why I want to be with you, but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should run the opposite direction. I'm a wreck ,a flaw, but there comes a moment when it's more than just a game. With you it's always pure risk .I could've just left but here's the thing,I love chasing mirages.